just want to hug my knees and cry out loud.

fighting against the rain as it falls onto the window pane.

feeling hurt inside where no one can ever understand.

waiting for the moment of happiness to arrive.

but somehow, knowing that it is long gone.

for it is being stolen away.

if only you knew.

i made many mistakes in life.

only hoping to make up for it.

but somehow life is preventing me so.

maybe i need a life-altering event to change it all.

hahs.