alright. let me get it straight here. the past entries are rather solomn and full of self-pity of some sort. but i have decided to wake up to a better future ahead of me rather than wallow in stuff i can never change at all. it is time to move on. (:

right now i am exhausted and rather lethagic however lets start things on a lighter note, chapter sixteen of my life is happening soon and finish up chapter fifteen. oh how i can't wait. (: also, i have got retail therapy and dinner dates to look forward to. after the raining days, the sun will always shine! that's how i feel. cause for the past almost ONE WEEK, yes, i repeat one week, the skies have been crying. the sight of the sun today made me want to smile so much that i couldn't contain. though raining is good cause the weather becomes cooler, too much of it will get me too immune and makes me want the sun more than ever. HAHA.

pms has played a very successful role in making me feel so down and out. especially when things ain't working smoothly for the start. and the truth is that it kind of scares me when i go through pms. i will feel like crying even at the slightest setback or get frustrated easily over small things. but of course, i got so used to it that i try to control. or else i will definately suffer a nervous breakdown. that's the last thing i ever want to experience. to add on, there is the evil, horrible o's to conquer. HAHAH. i will, have and need to survive. it will be a miracle to be able to handle every thing from studies to band to church. i need prayers, so keep me on your what-you-have-to-pray-daily list. and tell me your problems, i will keep you in mine too. (:

i can hardly wait for my retail therapy! though it always leave me feeling so broke. ha.

hmm, i am going to have my hair trimmed a little and fridge shorten. of course, not the act cute kind of fridge but its the kind of fridge that defines the hair and face. i am not going to my usual hairdreser and i need to believe the hairdresser tomorrow is going to do a good job. okay, have faith lyd. man, i need to stop doubting that the results of the haircuts tomorrow will be horrible. HA. its all in the mind, its all really in the mind.

okays, i am really sleepy. its has been a great and feels more normal day.
good nights!