my moRON didn't go to church today ): but other than that, everything else was good (:

i feel rather trapped and bored in school. mostly, the mugging for stupid tests and doing unworthy pile of homework O.O how? i need to get out of my holiday mode. and yes, i am already thinking of march holidays. i need to get out more often, more shopping, more beaching, more eating trips and more everything except studying. i guess i need motivation. lots of it. lets blame it on the stupid, evil o's! HAHA.

alright, been thinking about LOTS of stuff. the past, my choices that i have made, the present, choices that i have to make. i think i am a little austic. i can keep really quiet and don't socialise and be a loner. this doesn't sound really good. but i guess thinking too much and keeping everything inside me is just simply me. sometimes it is hard to find someone to lean on. i don't like to burden people with my problems. they will get as frustrated as me. HA. so i share ALL problems with my omnipotent Father. but there will be the feeling tagged at my chest. its hard to believe when things look bad but i will learn (: no matter how longs it takes.

Father, i need you more than morning needs the light (:
maybe you will send someone, i pray.