i have got no inspiration at the moment and it makes me feel really restless..

anyhows, i'd been reflecting a lot a lot.
about the Heavenly One.
about family.
about friends.
about life.
about love.
about the future.
about myself.
about a lot of whys.

yeah, that is how much i have been thinking since the last post. ha.

this whole weekend felt as if a i had laid on a cloud and float past the earth and created a unascertained, enchanting land of my own. however, i felt alone. happy but alone. no one to share the tinge of joy in me. the solitary was the most deafening silence i have ever heard. of course, i have the Sweetest One above. but it is always nice to have someone to share the bliss and anguish with. somehow, my weekend always pass on like this. friends become at a distant every weekend. i know i want to do something to change all that but it has invariably been easier said than done. you know you can change it but the journey is so heart-wearing and arduous. it that kind of feeling and i abhor that feeling. ah, words can never really express closely to what i really am feeling. sighs.

alright, got more to pen down actually. but inspiration just isn't here tonight with me. so i am going to head for the telly.

ciaos.

ps. i will never wear a nice but uncomfortable pair of high heels anymore! AH!