some things are just not within my control.

well, i had my chinese orals for the o's today. i dont know if i did well or screwed up cause the line that separates these two can be just one thin, miserable line. of course, i would have love to be confident about my oral. however, i felt i didnt really give my best because i was cogent by nervousness. immediately, i felt like flying myself to the Arctic and learn how to hibernate from the polar bears and i can bet that i will certainly transcend the polar bear's skills. cause i really feel like going into hibernation and not see the world for two seasons. or maybe a more money saving solution, dig a hole right in the ground and plunge in. HA. oh man, this whole imprecation really made me moodless for the whole afternoon. i even resorted to binge. thank God, i only ate like three-quarts of the potato chips. i might have die from excessive sodium in my body one day. ah, i am just rumbling and ranting a lot today. i need to get that stupid oral out of my head before depression seep into my system. i am so not going to allow that to happen because i have had enough.

anyhows, i know that the Greatest One above will make tomorrow a better day and i really got to learn how to trust in Him. He is the only One who will never, ever let me down (: in my darkest times, i can certainly turn to Him for comfort and assurance i am His. i wonder how i will ever live without Him (:

alright, i reallyg got to stick as closely to my study schedule as possible. time is running out really soooonn.