Laughing is good exercise.
It's like jogging on the inside.

i realised that i dont like quite a number of people.
mostly because of their actions.
but i always tell myself to find out the purpose of their doings.
and those for a bad motive.
of course they will be in my dont like list. obvious.
but usually i dont like people who sucks up backstabbs
or think only for themselves and no one else.
those really are the worst lot.
also there this bunch of people who i wont elaborate.
wanna know. just me lahs.
only two people knows my likes and dont likes. oh wells.
because they can be trusted or rather they understands. :D

anyways, i have learnt not be naive and take things for granted.
gaining trust in someone is difficult but losing trust is one easy job.
so i guess that is one of my new resolution.
on the matter of trust, treat it like gold!!
and i have been thinking alot these past two days.
i must let go of certain things. or else how will i be move on.
i cant always be stuck inside one failure and feel down at least a few days
or regret it for the rest of my life.
another new year resolution stated.
i will definately keep them for the rest of my life.
because i wanna be a better person who knows how to handle life better. hoorays.

> o1- i am not --> the cheerful person that you always see. i feel sad but i dont show.
> o2- i love --> God. my family tho sometimes i dont agree with them. my friends.
> o3- i hate --> the feeling of loss, when no one understands, when im feeling down and dont
understand why to a certain situation.
> o4- i fear --> being left alone and understanding seems so faraway.
> o5- i hope --> to go heaven now.
> o6- i hear --> myself sighing.
> o7- i regret --> alot of things.
> o8- i cry --> when i cant take it anymore. really.
> o9- i care --> for friends that needs a listening. even when they arent that close.
> 1o- i m always --> thinking. trying to understand why. why?
> 11- i believe --> in my Lord. only he can do wonders. =D
> 12- i feel alone --> suddenly the whole world seems to turn against me.
> 13- i listen --> songs i like. obviously.
> 14- i hide --> my true feelings for a certain someone. im straight mind you. haha.
> 15- i sing --> err. not so nice?
> 16- i dance --> when im happy. :D
> 17- i write --> my sadness away.
> 18- i play --> piano when i dont any contact with the outside world. clarinet
and alittle of guitar.
>19- i dun play --> whatever instruments that i didnt mention tho i wanna learn how to play
electric bass.
> 2o- i miss --> those carefree moments. sighs.
> 21- i search --> for answer to my whys.
> 22- i feel --> i feel how i feel.
> 23- i don't know --> why sometimes i feel this way.
> 24- i talk --> cock. joking lahs. to people.
> 25- i succeed --> in having a new year's resolution list!
> 26- i fail --> in getting rid of those stupid thoughts.
> 27- i dreamt --> that i will be rich one day!! hahas.
> 28- i wonder --> why life can be so screwed at times.
> 29- i want --> to be in heaven now!
> 30- i have --> a wish that i will be happier.
> 31- i give up --> when i think its time.
> 32- i fell --> into sadness at times. but im overcoming it.
> 33- i hurt --> some people i guess. thats life.
> 34- i tell --> my inner thoughts to God. x)

ehhs. got this from duckie.
because there are some answers inside which reflect how im feeling now.
but somehow words to seems to describle my exact feeling.
wells. i found out something today at band.
and gloominess was in the air.
things happens for a reason.
but its no use regretting right.
learn from mistakes. that what i have learnt.

i just heard I Promise - Staccie Orrico on the radio.
i used to love that song until i got tired.
but after so many months and hearing it again.
brought back a certain memory.
but i got over it . so yupp.
and no its isnt relationship problems. hahas.

hmm. i should just forget all the sad things and enjoy myself till i feel down again.
at least tmrw i going shopping.
shop away all the unhappiness. heh.

also i realised that my post are kinda long recently.
i have got so much to talk about? oh wells.