i wish, i wish that everything will go on smoothly.
fat hopes.

i am abnormally tired.
to add on, there is so many major upcoming events.

maybe that's why i feel like i lack the strength to face what lies ahead for me.
no, maybe it isn't tiredness.
maybe i am trying to find blame on something for my inability to do anything right now.

life is not a smooth journey.
i think everyone knows.

i am stating the OBVIOUS here.
it isn't redundent though, it's more like a reminder.
humans often have this concept that life must be good; for me.
but only to find out later that life isn't as good as it seems to be.

misconception, are humans listening?
even if they do listen, it only goes in one ear and comes out the other.

i feel like i am talking about myself instead.
am i even listening to what i am saying?
i hope so.

sometimes, i feel so indifferent towards the whole life process.
the emotions we have to go through.
the situations we need to understand.
somehow, it can be rather depressing.

for example, when humans feel like crying, they should just cry it out.
only then they can feel better.
but humans often see crying as a sign of WEAKNESS.

boohoo to the human race.
i deem it as childish.
crying is afterall only an emotion human go through.
so what's so bad about crying?
don't we humans feel better after crying?

eh. why am i even talking about this?
it could be due to the fact i am not really happy with what's going on in my life.

but i will find happiness and strength from the Lord.
He promised.
that always makes me feel better. (:

alright, i better go and attend to my mother.
she isn't happy that no one is helping her prepare lunch.
i long for peace, people.

ps. i will update after the two major stuff is over.
prays really hard it will be a success.

should i give you up?
i will never have an answer.
cause you're too far away to even know.